Am I gay if I find other women attractive?

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Hi Everyone,

This subject, for most people, tends to induce weird looks, obvious lies or just the plain you are a “freak” statement. The fact is, almost every female, at one time or other, have thought about or wanted to experiment with another female. This conversation has been the staple of many a social setting, inducing sheer excitement for the typical male. Which leads me to divulge the latest saga of my life.

Recently I have found that women have been hitting on me a lot more than usual. Usually it would be the knowing looks, the occasional wink or the blatant uncrossing of the legs to ensure that peek. Either way I enjoyed the flirting for what it’s worth, many times getting really excited, but knowing when to walk away or project my thoughts elsewhere.

Anyway, the female attention is becoming more frequent these days, even though I am not doing anything different than what I have done before in terms of attire and liming spots. My thing is I seem to be anticipating it now more than usual, and get really disappointed if it doesn’t happen. I must make it clear I do love men in every sense of the word and have no intention of having a relationship with a woman. But how do I explain the excitement I get when a particular female friend of mine hug, tends to linger longer than normal, or that random stranger with the stilettos and the little black dress, at my favorite watering hole, ignoring her date and staring at me?

I have found myself putting this mental journey into phases: Phase one (1) has been the awareness and appeal of someone sharing similar gender. Phase two (2): the realization that I am very comfortable with my thoughts and feelings. Phase three has simply been reserved as the action phase, the moment when the many thoughts, fantasies, excitement transform into actual physical confirmations.

Do I dare anger the gods? Would such a move taint my innocence in the eyes of the lord? Should I be ashamed of a natural feeling? I know I am going to get a lot of flack from my spiritual sisters and brothers, but according to Murphy’s Law; those who are most moral are furthest away from the problem. I won’t allow my morals to be judged by others, show me a person without sin and I will show you a day old new born.

Many females, young and the mature, reading this will most definitely identify, to them I say; society has it’s way of dictating what is better for you. Personally I don’t conform to the norm, because the right moment, the right person is out there somewhere for my first female experience and with all my heart I will welcome it. So to all my sisters out there who have been fighting with this taboo, in my opinion let nature decide.

All opinions are welcome.

Want to share your personal experience with me but not strong enough to publicize it? Then email it to me @ private and we will talk about it.


scru·ple (skroopel)
n.
1. An uneasy feeling arising from conscience or principle that tends to hinder action.